Yes, may I have a order of Insanity?

I think I’m going insane. I don’t know what is going on with me but the past few weeks I have felt like my world is crashing to an end. And what scared me the most; I think my relationship is on rocks because of the emotion wreck I have been.

Is it PMS? I don’t think so because it’s been going on for about a month. Why do I feel like this? Because so many people around me are getting married, having kids, or finding out they are having a kid. Back in the day I would not have cared, but I think things are different because I have a chance to not be lonely for the rest of my life.

I love my boyfriend with all my heart but I know that I am doing nothing but pushing him away. I don’t mean to but it’s happening. I’m pushing him away because (1) all of the other relationships have been the same and (2) I don’t want to fall madly in love with him only to have my heart yanked out of my chest.

I pray everyday that my mind will be clear of these thoughts but something happens that triggers them. I don’t know what else to do. Should I talk to someone? Possibly, but I don’t have the money to do that.

I just don’t know what to do…

Band of the Week: Death Cab for Cutie

Okay! I am officially back. For the past few weeks I have been in a deep funk. I didn’t want to write anything or design anything. I am still in the funk but I am slowly climbing out and writing this is the first step.

As you have seen in the title this is the ‘Band of the Week’ post. I usually do this on Thursdays but I am going to try and start doing them on Mondays now. So for this week my choice is Death Cab for Cutie. Sad to say that I didn’t start listening to them until they came out with the theme for Twilight’s New Moon. The singer I recognized from the group Postal Service (which will more than likely be another group featured). As always here is an excerpt from Amazon.com about the group:

Death Cab for Cutie (DCfC) is a Grammy nominated American indie rock band, formed in Bellingham, Washington in 1997. The band consists of Benjamin Gibbard (vocals, guitar), Chris Walla (guitar, production), Nick Harmer (bass) and Jason McGerr (drums).

Death Cab for Cutie was originally formed by singer Ben Gibbard as a side project to his main involvement in Pinwheel. He took the name from a track by UK 60s group, the Bonzo Dog Doo-Dah Band, for his first release You Can Play These Songs with Chords. The cassette-released album was much more successful than Gibbard had anticipated, and he decided to form a band.

Having gathered together a drummer, a guitarist and a bass player, the new band hit the recording studio to re-record some of the tracks from You Can Play…. The result Something About Airplanes was well received, though the band had to wait until Transatlanticism (2003) for their first Top 100 Billboard position. They cracked the Top 10 with their follow-up Plans.

Death Cab has released 5 EPs and 6 studio albums. Their initial record label was Barsuk Records, and later signed to Atlantic Records in November 2004.

Some recent related side projects of Death Cab include the solo work of Ben Gibbard and Chris Walla, the collaboration of Jimmy Tamberello and Ben for the Postal Service and on a few Dntel tracks. On October 20th, 2009 Ben and Jay Farrar of Sun Volt will release their collaboration on “One Fast Move or I’m Gone: Kerouac’s Big Sur.”

I hope you enjoy this group like I do. And also, if you have any group in mind that you would like to see featured shoot me an email [angeleyez1042@gmail.com] and please put in the subject “Band of the Week.”

A few days…PROMISE!

Okay. Don’t hate me people. I know I haven’t been blogging much and I do apologize. My life has been going a mile a minute. But I am starting to get everything under control and I will be starting back with the blogging soon. I am sad to say that I won’t be participating in July’s Bloggerstock post. I felt as tho I need to sit one out as I get things settled.

I can’t wait to get back in routine of things because I have a lot of things to share (hopefully I remember them all). But I have to keep this short so don’t fret… I’ll return in a few.

Much Love!

July Update: I’m back!!

Whew! I finally have a break. I feel like I never write on here anymore. The past week has been ridiculously busy. Not only was I juggling with a deadline (which I completed) but I was also in the process of moving. So I’m trying to design as I pack. Very difficult to do. I wish I could have just hired someone to pack for me. Wishful thinking.

Well, just so you know the move went fine and I am about 80% unpacked. It’s a little difficult to fully unpack when my sister’s family still lives here also. YEA!! So that means 4 adults and 1 child living in a 3 bedroom home, but don’t worry it’s only temporary. My sister and her family are moving into a house but it’s not completed at the moment. The only reason we (my other sister and I) moved in here was because our lease was up and we didn’t want to stay where we were another year and the landlord wasn’t working with us to just pay as we go. So we just moved out.

On another note, I would like to say that I am still a happy chica. My lovely boyfriend and I are heading towards our 2 month anniversary. I’m excited and I have something in mind on how we are going to celebrate. Of course, he wants to know but I am not going to tell him. It’s a surprise. I just hope he is in town when it comes around.

I hate to cut it short but I have some other things to take care of but I just want to update on here because I feel like I’m neglecting it. I especially need to get back on the Band of the Week blog. I might just start it on Monday instead of Thursdays.

But anyways, gotta go!

*PeaCe*

Bloggerstock: “what’s on your desk?”

I would like to introduce you to Kris, my guest blogger of the month. I’m so excited! As you know, I am involved in a blog ring called Bloggerstock. Kris is one of the co-founders (as well as myself). Kris is a small town girl who craves adventure. She has done many things, achieved little, and don’t usually notice when she is singing. People and cultures fascinate her to no end, when means she adores backpacking. When she is home she enjoys snowboarding, reading good books, and summer. She has been blogging for seven years, publicly for half a year, but she very rarely succeeds at being funny. Check out her blog here where you can also read her guest blogger. So, I am going to shut-up now and let Kris do her thing on my blog. Enjoy!

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I’m an internet transient at the moment. Different desks, different settings where the only non-variable is a keyboard. But when I get my old computer back this is where I’ll work.

A beater of a desk I found in my spare room when I moved in. White melamine with cubbies I can stretch my feet into. A plastic mesh container of stationary, as mason jar of pencils and a stack of irrelevant papers.

There are three particular items with history. The first, a set of photographs in cheap plastic frames. “My group” in a Supervalue parking lot and my family out Christmas treeing. These have traveled with me more then once packed in a powder blue suitcase.

There is a wooden box built by my sister and smeared with green leaf imprints. It has a past life as a secret neighborhood mailbox which the evil boys found by following our tracks in the snow. Now it holds letters I sent home from Mexico and about 200 pens. Yes, I’m an addict.

And then there’s my poi. I first saw this used on a beach in Barcelona sitting in a cluster of travelers listening to guitar. I fell in love with the dance, the beauty, the passion for which I did not yet have a name.

I learned the basics in an Israeli guest camp from a hippi named Leor who made me laugh. It wasn’t long before I knew as much as he did.

My own poi got created in a beach hut in India. I used a pocket knife and those sewing kits you steal from hotel rooms. I cut up a pair of jeans that had seen the world with me and become worn in all the wrong places. The pockets are became filled with sand from beneath my feet and the ropes are strips of braided denim.

I continue to admire poi and the traveling artists who have perfected the art. i play with them occasionally, and one day I’ll learn more. For now they sit on my desk by a computer where I generally spend too much time.

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If you would like to see my guest blog post come visit Risha’s blog.

Band of the Week: Canceled!!

Don’t worry, it’s not canceled forever, I just don’t have time to do one this week. I haven’t even been able to update much either. I just hopped on here for a quick second. The reason to why I am not able to do one is because I have been designing a program book for a convention and we are trying to get it completed this week. So I have been SLAMMED with things to design and I LOVE IT!

I promise I will pick back up next week but until then please continue to listen to Sia (from last week).

*much love*

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